Thursday, May 28, 2009

change, change, change...

Here is what Strengths Finder said my top strengths are now:
Connectedness
Individualization
Maximizer
Empathy
Arranger

Connectedness and Individualization are repeats…which I think I find a little comfort in. It’s amazing that three of the five have changed…which means…my strengths have changed…which means…I have changed. Change is good and I’m always looking to progress forward, but I would like to think that there are some core items about me that are not going to change. It’s interesting though that the 3 different strengths from the previous test have a lot of similarities and common traits. So, as I did with my other ones, I will expand on what they mean.

It’s Thursday…I always look forward to Thursday. SlowBurn is on Thursday. But this Thursday is a little different. I’m turning 29 tomorrow and I love birthdays and the idea of celebrating someone, but it also causes me to do some reflecting. I am no where near where I thought I would be, but so thankful of where I am. God has truly blessed me with so much! I could never thank my God enough for His blessings, His provision, His safe keeping, His graciousness, and His goodness to me. I am blessed beyond measure. I am so thankful for life and honored to be His daughter. I am grateful for this journey.


ps: My bathroom is no longer painted black. It is now brown. I don't like it as much. It's all in part of making the home ready to be on the market again though. Luckily I don't spend enough time in the bathroom to really care. There has been several touch ups, paint changes and room rearranging...you know the things you don't do unless you are trying to sell it...looks pretty good.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

As the World Turns

There was a lot going on this weekend, but i definitely managed to have some quiet time during the long weekend. I love sleeping in on Sunday...even though sleeping in to me does not usually pass 8am...it's still sleeping in for me. I lounged around and then got a few things done that needed to get done. I was also able to do the StrengthsFinder test again...new results will be posted shortly.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

dear diary

So, I've just gotten home from babysitting and I'm pretty sure I should be going to sleep, but I'm in need of some wind down time...it's been a little hectic and it helps me write things down to process...most people just keep a private journal...apparently I'm an open book.

Thursday night I had the honor to see my friend, Los, and several guys graduate from the School of Ministry of Grace Chapel (hosted at NarrowGate). Wow! What a wonderful, wonderful graduation. Each guy ministered in one way or another and it was incredible! I am so proud of each one. I love what God is doing in each and can't wait to see the great things He is going to do through them. Worship was awesome. Bugs led as Alex accompanied with guitar. This was not the first time I've heard Bugs lead worship, but this time it was anointed! The guys spoke from their hearts and not just with the head knowledge that they've learned during their time in school of ministry. Quite a sight to see men standing up in their callings and moving forward. It was so cool to be a part of that night. Good people.

Friday morning and afternoon turned out to be not as good of a day as Thursday was. There were moments that I wanted to just shut down, walk out and hide. I knew that that was not a good or right option. I had to shake it...so on came the worship music. I was determined that I was not going to be a slave to the feelings. I was choosing to let go. SO hard! I was looking forward to dinner with the guys though. I knew there would be some good laughs. We invited a couple people to go to dinner in honor of a friend who was moving the next day. We certainly had some good laughs. I am blessed to have people in my life that allow me to be me. After a couple of us made a trip to the wonderful Target and then we took a two second drive to drop off one of my friends. I can't remember what sparked the conversation, but it became a God ordained moment. I was privileged with the opportunity to see the awesome heart of my friend in a vulnerable state. I have the utmost respect for this friend and I have more respect for them after that conversation. We took time to end our conversation in prayer and I knew that Jesus was so present in the midst of the us...it was almost as if there were four of us. What an awesome way to spend my Friday night I thought later that night. I wouldn't have changed it for any other event or opportunity. It was where I wanted to be. I love God moments like this one. So beautiful.

SlowBurn had a ladies brunch at my house today. So fun! We have the best godly women around. The food was good; the company was perfect; and the ministry time was so beautiful! Worship was so sweet. Jodi and Stacy did a lovely job of leading us into the throne room. Adie offered awesome words of encouragement. She read a story of a couple that made an atmosphere for God to do the miraculous in an unexpected place...their wedding. Prayer time was so, so, so wonderful. Sweet Holy Spirit was definitely a part of this brunch from start to finish. What a blessing to be part of a family that loves God above all else and it shows because of the love they have for His people!

After a couple errands I got to go hang with my favorite boys, Justin and Jackson. We did a bunch of nothing but playing and it was good. It was really good to be surrounded by these boys tonight. I can't help but be filled with joy when I get the opportunity to spend time with them. They make my heart happy. Time went by way too quick and they were headed to bed. They made me so proud when they said the Lord's Prayer tonight. Their parents are doing such a good job raising these boys. They are like family to me and I am so glad to have them in my life. I thank God for them and their friendship.

Well...I must say...I am so blessed! I am so thankful for the friends, family and people in my life. God has really allowed me to be surrounded with the cream of the crop. It is my desire to learn from all of them and grow and be who I am called to be to them in return. I am grateful for the love I have been shown. It is my prayer that I exude that love and drip wherever I am. I don't mind that kind of leaking! Okay, I really need to get to sleep now...

xo much love xo