Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Expecting and making no Exceptions: Challenging myself in Faith.

I am starting a journey today. I am going to challenge myself in Faith. I had a really strange question pop in my head yesterday that I can’t shake. Do I really have faith? Really? Honestly? I didn't like the implications of that question, but i had to check my spirit.

Do I really believe in the impossible happening? Just by asking that question tells me that I’m not so sure that I do have the faith that the Bible talks about. Impossible: what a word! “Nothing is impossible” the Bible says. There are no impossibilities. None. Everything is possible. Anything could happen. Anything.

I can repeat this over and over and yet still have trouble with it completely sinking in. Why can’t I grasp this concept? Why can’t I wrap my head around it? Maybe it has something to do with the fact that since I was a child I have been taught that not everything is possible by the adults in my life or by circumstances. Or maybe I lost my imagination. Or have I believed the lies of satan for so long that I don’t know the difference between what God is saying and what satan wants me to believe? Ouch. I’ve stepped on my own toes. It’s hard to swallow that I have been believing the lies for so long. It’s hard to accept that I have allowed myself to believe satan over God, over Truth. Yuck. I don’t like that I’ve allowed myself to put limits on God, on Heaven, and on me. I don’t like that I’ve been ignorant and not seen that it’s been a lie this whole time. What have I missed out on? What have I lacked? What have I not seen because of my ignorance?

Today is a new day. I am a new creation. I don’t think like I used to think. I refuse to be who I was yesterday because that person isn’t filled with faith. I am renewing my mind. I am transformed today by Truth. This may be a process, but heck, I’m challenging myself to step out of my box. I don’t like boxes. I don’t like being lied to. I will not accept what was anymore. Today, I will put my Faith in my God. I will put my Faith in Jehovah Jireh. I will put my Faith in my Healer. I will put my Faith in my sweet, sweet Friend! I will have Faith; Faith to move the mountain; Faith to bring what reigns in Heaven to reign here on earth. Lord, may Your Will be done on earth as it is in Heaven today!